urgh.
yesterday was a little tearful, spoke to martin about how my gran has cancer of the womb and how she’s the person that i’m the closest too and how because its my mums mum, my mum isn’t coping really well and is taking it out on my dad and screaming at him for nothing and just cried my eyes out at him cause it hadn’t sunken in until i spoke about it, and to be honest it still hasn’t really; but martin was an absolute babe as always. so after our little chat i dried my eyes and went back into the studios, later when i was home i had some bananas that were brown and decided to make them into a cake, and brought that cake into uni today, and asked robert if he wanted cake, and said that i was a bit emotional yesterday so i baked a cake and he looked at me to say whats up, so i just said that i’d go get the cake and we’d talk, so came to his office and told him but when i said my gran had cancer -his reply- well that’s what happens when people get older. like wtf!? i know that i’m not stupid, it’s just that shes the best gran i could ask for so i don’t want her to get old and ill. so when it does happen, it’s heartbreaking. and as i explained it i couldn’t help feel like he wasn’t that interested so i didn’t waste my breath. shared the cake and left and went into my studio.
